Messed up day

I had the weirdest things happen to me today. From messaging a school friend, only to find out that he died over a year ago, to meeting sujata's mom for the first time since we started dating. Both were super awkward.. I can't say which one was more. But the first one was definitely more sad.

On the brighter side, I moved most of my stuff in at pranav's flat, and will be living here from now on. Today, anup was really getting on my nerves, so I'd say, it wasn't a day too soon. Even the internet connection was installed today, so I'm really satisfied.

And just before I went to bed, I got to talk to mickey. It had been ages! But he said he was just typing a reply to the email. Pranav, never checks his email. he always has an excuse, but actually, for Pranav, communication is not important. He only cares about his studies. And when he told me that, I wished there was something I could do to teach him a lesson. Life is not just about 'you', there are other people, who's lives you affect too.

Tagged!

I am so sorry to Karthik that I didn't post a new entry the last time I was tagged. But this time, I won't miss it. So here goes:

Last movie I saw in the theater?

Iron man

What book am I reading these days?

none, Honestly, but I would like to read Failing forward

Favorite Board game?

Clue, A game I played with my friend Rohin a long time ago called 'Who dares'

Favorite magazine?

I like a lot of mags, but don't know which one I'd call my favorite.

Favorite smells?

Hmm, that's an interesting one. I love the smell of the earth when it rains for the first time after a long summer. If they came out with a perfume that smelled like that, I'd be ready to pay them a fortune.

Favorite sounds?

I don't really think about sounds much... But I'd say my fav sound is sound of laughter of people closest to me.

Worst feeling in the world?

I don't think many would disagree with me on this, guilt is by far the worst feeling you can experience. Also add loneliness and separation.

First thing I think of when I wake?

It changes every day, but mostly, its that I meet or talk to a friend today.

Favorite fast food place?

Subway

Future child's name?

Harsh/pranav/Ankita/Sujata/Nikita (there seems to be a pattern of sound in the girl names, all end with 'ta')

If I had a lot of money, I'd...

make sure my family and friends never run into money related problems.

Do I drive fast?

Hell yeah!

Do I sleep with a stuffed animal?

Are you kidding me? I fuckin don't!

Storms - cool or scary?

'Scary cool'

What was my first car?

I haven't owned a car!

Favorite drink? 

its a tough call between Cold coffee and coke

If I had the time, I would...

work-out and improve my body.

Do I eat the stems on broccoli?

I haven't had enough broccoli to form an opinion

If I could dye my hair any other color, I would

Dye it a very low value, low key blue

Name all the places I've lived..

Oh boy, I love this one...Akola, Pune, Mumbai, Oakville

Favorite sports to watch?

Extreme sports

Nice thing about the person who sent me this?

He is very down to earth.

What's under my bed?

Under some, there's a storage compartment that holds all kinds of things. with others, there's nothing.

Would I like to be born as myself again?

yes, that would be fine.

Morning Person or night Owl?

Both, actually. at different times though.

Over easy or sunny side up?

Over easy

Favorite place to relax?

Anywhere with a perfect 24 degrees temperature.

Favorite pie?

We don't get much pies where I live. But when I was in oakville, I liked lemon meringue pie.

Favorite ice cream flavor?

Strawberry and chocolate

of all the people I have tagged...

wait, I have tagged none.

Sometimes, even the greatest need help.

This morning, Lalu was feeling really hungry, so he decided to make scrambled eggs for himself. The packet of bread wasn't closed off properly, so some of the slices got a little dry. He swallowed the breakfast with lots of water. His hunger seemed satisfied, and he was ready to go on his way.

Upon reaching deccan, he longed for a bite of the delicious dabeli from the corner 'thela'(stall on the roadside). But his stomach wasn't feeling very good. It felt like it was gonna make him throw up anytime now. So he decided to go take care of the business he was actually here for. Getting the information he needed didn't take too long. And when the craving still didn't go away, he decided to go for the dabeli. It was dabelicious.

His stomach wasn't getting any better. He wondered if it was the heat. At CCD he had a cafe frappe while discussing his plans with his friend. Lalu was really uneasy, but tried to keep his composure. He asked for some water, hoping it would help stop his sickness..."Does my face look all green?"

They left CCD, they had some work to do. On the way, they stopped at a restaurant to get some refreshments. Lalu didn't want to take any risks so he didn't have anything. However, he was thirsty just a short while later. But they were almost done, and he could head home now. Cool, comfortable, home.

After he was feeling less likely to barf, he had an apple to quench his hunger. But it was not a substitute for proper meals. And he got extremely hungry around 8 pm. Just then, dad and uncle came home, ready to take Lalu with them for dinner. When he explained his situation to his uncle, he gave him half a 'perinom' a med that's supposed to counteract nausea. And an antacid for good precautionary measures.

Lalu did take pride in the fact that he had been here for a week, and hadn't gotten seriously sick. So turning to allopathy was not something he would be happy about. But once the meds did their miracle, He was able to eat a hearty dinner. And all happy and proud, he returned home, feeling triumphant. He had finally conquered food; or his stomach, whichever you prefer.

This is getting SO long!!

If the last post seemed like I had too much to say and not enough time to say it, get ready for more, of that. I met so many people in one day yesterday, did so many things, I could just go over the last 36 hours and live my life happily for a week.... I don't think I made that clear enough.. I can't think of any other way to explain it, but this-

In the movie bluffmaster, when abhishek bacchan is told he's going to die, boman irani, the doctor says to him, "how many good/happy moments or days do you remember from your entire lifetime? lets say 5? In the next 30 days, that you have to live, you can relive your life 6 times!"

That's food for thought for today. What about food for my stomach? I am really hungry. Haven't had breakfast today. I did made breakfast yesterday, for golu bhaiya and me. I made half fried and poached egg. I burnt my finger in the process. LOL. Then Golu bhaiya dropped me off at tina's hostel from where I picked up her activa. All this time, pranav kept calling me, wanting to know where I was. I was just as impatient. I saw the long pune roads and raced the activa to yashwant rao chauhan natya griha. I saw his bike in the parking lot, he was already here.

I went upstairs, and I noticed suju first. I gave a second glance to the figure in white and realized that was pranav.. An unshaven, bespectacled, pranav in jeans and t shirt. Fuck! There was sumit, looking a little plumper than usual. I told him he put on some weight and he said "I thought you were going to say the opposite." wow! I wonder what he was like before 'loosing' weight. Suju's skin was actually as clear as I had seen in some recent photos. I guess the workout and diet is paying off in many more ways.

Pranjali arrived soon after, but even after calling up mohini a whole bunch of times, we only finally met up at city pride. Shruti was there too. I didn't intend to eat anything there, but I ended up doing it anyways because I was really hungry. We took lots of pictures, messed around with the camera, sketched a little... damn I didn't date those.. I must do that now. The plan for the big sleepover kept tumbling around... first it was sumit, then it was not sumit, it was pranjali. This kind of thing is expected to happen when you have a large group, so its not a problem. We decided we'll do it the next night.

After the girls left, I looked around at crosswords, asked for a few books, and we were told we'd find one of them at the JM road crossword. We rode all the way, but we didn't find 'failing forward' there either. Apparently, its out of publishing... sad! I noticed jonathan livingston seagull and bought it for pranav. I used dad's debit card for the first time, it worked fine. I even signed for him. LOL I hope I don't get into trouble for that. Now we were off to Pranav's place.

We spent quite some time there. He showed me his animation, drawings etc. Even though I was really happy for him, I felt miserable inside. I felt like a bum. I should have been in animation school by now, learning what I really want to do. But I failed. I don't think I am working towards my goal hard enough. And pranav has already got a good foothold in the field. He knows his stuff, and even though he says he lost practice, he can quickly relearn it.

I decided to cancel the cad B plan with suju and the rest of the gang, as I was feeling rather weak. We went straight to my place and I finally had 'ghar ka khana' and I felt much better. Abhinav was on his way, and was supposed to call us when he gets here, but both our phones had no coverage in the kitchen. When I realized that, we panicked for a bit, thinking abhinav must be worried. He wasn't here yet tho. So we went upstairs. He called pranav a few minutes later, and I went to pick him up.

The sleepover had officially begun. We tried getting stupid windows xp in vmware fusion to run the emulator, but nothing. Even if we had found a mac emulator for dreamcast, the game controllers weren't being recognized on the mac, apparently. So we decided to start watching paprika. Half way through the movie, we decided to go get some food. I felt like shiv sagar, but it was really crowded, so we went to smokin joes instead. A nice pizza, mountain dew, and company of my friends; AWESOME!

We came back, finished paprika, then I showed them some artwork from my classmates in visual and creative arts. Pranav was blown away for sure. Then we watched 'The man who planted trees' and both of them absolutely loved it. It was the first time I watched the entire thing on my laptop, and even I was blown away. Just that I found it hard to believe that forests would actually grow in a barren land. You gotta consider all the elements in the surroundings. I was watching planet earth a few days ago, and they explain the occurrence of forests and deserts and mountains with the natural phenomenons such as weather, erosion, chemical reaction, tectonic movements... So only if there is a water body nearby from which water vapor rises, proper terrain to guide the rain winds that way, if only there is the right temperature to make the rains fall, will the terrain actually flourish. So, as I thought, the story, is not true.

We didn't feel like starting another movie that late, so we just talked for a bit and abhinav decided he'll try and get some sleep, while me and pranav went up to the terrace to try and photograph the night sky. There, we talked for the time the camera was taking the long exposure and doing the noise reduction. Pranav knows so much about animation, I feel I should be the one asking him questions instead of me telling him stuff he probably already knows. I might be insulting his intelligence or knowledge. He said he was seriously considering coming to canada, and I feel he absolutely deserves it. I've told him this before, 'you really underrate yourself.'

When we came back down, abhinav woke up because of our noise, maybe also the mosquitoes. So we were just killing mosquitoes for a bit, then we got tired of this, and I started drawing. Pranav looked at my stuff, and he gave me whole bunch of helpful tips and hints. He asked me to draw particular things so that he could see what my visualization was like, etc. Then he told me about other artists, and that I should be observing this and trying to do what they do. I wished I had my life drawings here to show him. He could tell me a whole bunch of different things about those too! This is what I have been missing for so long.  I would love to get together with him and learn some tricks of the trade.

I'm in india

I spoke to Arjun bhaiya today. He sounded pretty enthusiastic. He said he wanted to see my stuff, we'd go out with his friends, get a coffee, hang out, have fun. I won't psychoanalyze this too much, I'll just admit, I'm more excited about it than he is. He's coming there in two days or so and I just got a whole new purpose to go to pune.

I'm hopefully leaving at 9 pm today. I can't be sure unless I get the bus ticket in my hands. We(divya, tina, purva) are going to watch 'tashan' in uday theatre in an hour. I am prepared for it to be a really shitty movie, but I'm just going there to hang with my cousins just like we did way back when. I remember the girls wanted to watch charlie's angels and I had to take them.

Then tonight, we are going to have dinner at sonu didi's. I will finally see sanika after 15 months. 'She talks a lot', is what I keep hearing. I will have my camera and take many pictures of my little niece. I wanted to meet sonu didi since the day I got here. But things just didn't work out. Rather, I didn't make things work out.

There are a lot of things I should have blogged about the day I got here, but better late than never. Divya's ipod is not going to be fully utilized until I get her a dock/charger. She only had a laptop there temporarily, so now she doesn't have a way to charge her ipod in her hostel. Plus, she likes to listen to her music on speakers instead of earphones, whenever she can. Even I find my laptop speakers inadequate for listening to music here. I'm planning to go buy some 'real' speakers too(Finally!!!).

I was dreaming again

I had a really weird night yesterday after I went to bed at I don't know... 4 am? I kind of knew I couldn't go to bed because I had slept for almost 10 hours already. But other times when this happened, I would just stay wide awake. Last night, however, I went into this state of half drowsiness... I was dreaming, but my mind would know that its a dream, and when I tried to snap out of it, and wake up, I couldn't. I was so restless! It was like I was sick or ill.. I would have similar phases during sleep when I have a fever.

There were three things that happened. I only remember two of them now. One was that I was talking to pranav face to face. That was probably because I tried calling Pranav before I went to bed. Also, I was thinking, I'd tell him, "you, mister, have to make up for all the times we didn't communicate." And that would involve spending all day long, with me, going to movies and talking. Its weird.. now that I think back, I can't imagine what we could have probably talked about for so long! hehe... There's also a side of me who thinks this is really bad. I don't want it to happen to me what happened to Sujata.

Moving on, there was the second thing, which I remembered when I was in the kitchen looking in the fridge. I was in Nagpur eating roti made by mamiji. I could almost smell the rotis and feel the warmth. LOL. Though they weren't as perfect as mom makes, they were home made. And I do not mean that mamiji makes bad rotis, she makes good rotis.... maybe there's an explanation.... maybe they have hired some maid to do the cooking and I don't know about it that's why I feel they were made by her... LOL..

Oh, I just remembered how I ended up in nagpur. LOL. I was thinking(maybe a little too much) about my friends, and that I might not fit in with their changed lifestyle and schedule anymore. Maybe they won't even like me... but my cousins would still be my cousins. I would go to nagpur and meet divya, harsh, nikita... and then, I would obviously have to go to mamaji's house..

I guess I better start packing then

I handed in my portfolio for the appeal today. First I ran to the international center office, left my portfolio there. But at D100, Denisse told me I had to bring it to her. So I went back to the B wing, picked up the portfolio and appeal letter from the international center and dropped it off with Denisse. I talked about whether I needed to be there for the appeal. She said the students don't really go into the meeting, where they are looking at the portfolio, 'your letter represents you'. So its decided, I don't have to stay here.

Today was possibly the last 'Monday Mall lunch' we're gonna have together. Well, technically, mine was the last monday because I didn't eat anything because of the sore on my tongue. But I'm glad I went because now there are no regrets. Jeremy dropped me off at the school again after the mall, and I picked up my assignment. If I tell you what mark I got before I tell the story, it would be very anticlimactic. So flashback to this morning!

The crit went pretty well. I started by talking about the stonehenge and the pyramids, ancient structures that to this day, amaze people. And they are just simple geometric shapes. I then talked about the Jantar Mantar. An equinoctial dial in Delhi. I had been there when I was younger and I only thought it was a giant sundial. I didn't realize that its so complex that it can tell the place of the sun in relation to earth and even other heavenly bodies. It is even believed that the stonehenge was a secular calendar. Then I introduced my project and talked about it. When the teacher asked during the critique, what mark I'd give myself, I said, ".... 'B'?" And others were prompting 'B plus!'. I explained, "This was my most disappointing work." Pointed out all the flaws and the things I couldn't achieve, like the mirrory shiny surface. Kirsten said the scale of the original should be gargantuan. 'That would be really breath taking.

Yeah, I really got involved in that didn't I? I got an A which at around 10 pm got bumped up to an A+ because she saw my photoshopped image in which I had enlarged the size of my structure. I'm really happy. Today was just such a perfect day. It was cold in the early morning but it got warmer. After I got back home, I called up Pranav. He said he was online. So I said I'll turn on my computer and start skype. I was still on the phone with him while I was doing that.. not realizing that it was pretty late in the night in India at the time. Then something happened and he couldn't hear my voice over the phone anymore. He said we'll talk on skype so I hung up. But...he never showed up.

So I went to bed, and slept till about 2 am. Now I'm not sleepy at all. So I started reading Sujata's blog. And after reading a couple posts, I realize, I don't want to go back there. Its hard to explain what I read that she wrote, and what I read between the lines. Its like the place brought upon a curse or something upon the college and everyone therein. Haha.. I'm going overboard now, but humor me, ok? I'm singing "chod aaye hum... woh galiya..." for the lack of any other cheesy song. I'm saying I am through with that place, and I can't go back. I can't go back because a lot has changed. And I don't like change...I'm sure I've said that before too.